So as I start this new blog journey... I want to set some things straight. I never was good at keeping a diary. I would always write them as if someone else was going to read my every inner thought. That is a scary thought for a mixed up chick, and so I wrote my journals how I thought people wanted them to written. I wasn't honest with myself, the one person that I should be honest with. So here I am starting a blog... an online diary... one that people WILL read (hopefully). And I am vowing to myself to be honest.
So since I grew up thin, how on Earth do I wake up fat??? Since I am being honest, really I can't blame anyone but myself... well I could co-blame my 3 kids. ; ) Anyway.... I started eating out all the time instead of embracing my step-dad Neil's cooking skills. In highschool I started out as a size 5-7. At the age of 20 I had my first child. I ended up back down to a size 9. But by age 21 I had my second child. After his birth, I never did get to my normal size. Normal was a size 11-14. I honestly don't remember how I got from a 14 to the current 20/22. I can only imagine that it was continued eating poorly with little excercise.
At 30 I found out I was pregnant again. I remember being so worried because I was already starting out as a size 22 and was 246 pounds. Luck would have it that I actually went down like 2 sizes and after my youngest was born I weighed 211. I should have started my lifestyle change from there. But that is easier said than done...
So today here I am. Back up to near 246. And fat again. I am over the excuses. I am ready to be the me I know I should be. At the end of July I joined LA Fitness. I want to go 3 or more times a week. And I started weight watchers this week. I may have woke up fat... But I am well on my way to go to bed thin. I just needed to start my journey. My friend asked me the question... How do you walk a mile... the response... One step at a time. So here is my first step in losing 80 pounds.
Hope I don't suck too much at this whole blog thing!
You are strong and amazing, I know you can do this. I have to lose about the same amount of weight, I don't know how I am going to do it but I am determined to find a way. Text me sometime otherwise I can't wait till your next update :)
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